Struggles with Infertility

Being a parent is not something that everyone has as a goal in life. But once you decide that you want to be a parent, and you are unable to, your life can either unravel, or you can try to find meaning in your struggles. This blog is me trying to find meaning.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

It's time to say ohm

My final grades are in and my thesis is complete and approved. I am done grad school. It's hard to believe the end has arrived and my evenings and weekends are mine again! What have I done since I handed in my last assignment? Anything I felt like! Such a surreal feeling.

Right now I'm focusing on me and us. Work continues to be hectic and I had a really fantastic annual performance review last week that both excites and terrifies me. I've registered for a February half marathon - training starts in a couple of weeks - and have plans for a full marathon in the summer (I am so far beyond not planning these things 'just in case' I get pregnant, ya know?) I'm on my road bike twice a week training with Speed Theory all winter and we've started Bikram yoga again. It's so nice to have time to do on these activities again.

Winter is here (I'm watching the snow fall outside the living room window as I type) and I'm looking forward to Christmas in Hawaii. Derek and I agreed to take a few months of downtime after I finished school to let my body destress before we pursue our FET. Our previously agreed upon timeline is a March/April transfer, after we spend a week in Mexico for a friend's wedding (I'm a bridesmaid) in early February. However, the stress of school, work, IF, and life in general, has taken it's toll. Derek and I are back in therapy after some tough times while I was away for my residency in October. So far, so good, and we're talking about the future (a good thing), but our FET timeline might be in a bit of limbo. We need to make sure we're both in the right place before we pursue anything.

Right now it's just time to relax. Hey, maybe I'll be an urban legend with all this relaxing I'm doing! Pfft!