How I spent my summer

When I last posted, I was a couple of months in to putting TTC fully aside and really living life this summer. It had been years since I had just lived - we were either TTC or I was in grad school. So, here's what I did this summer.

I graduated from grad school with a Master of Arts in Environment and Management

We went for a few hikes in the mountains.

We got a new foster dog named Silver, an approximately five year old Siberian Husky originally from a puppy mill in California.

 I rode my bike. I raced as much as my schedule would allow.

I spent every weekend on the road.

It was therapeutic.

And then I crashed my bike at the beginning of August and broke my elbow.

And had to have surgery to repair it. Most of August is a bit of a blur.

But I did still get to spend a week with my niece (thanks mom and dad for bringing her), who is definitely going to be a Firefighter like her Uncle Derek when she grows up.

And tomorrow, September 7, will be the first day of winter for Calgary, with an estimated 5 cm expected by mid-morning (don't worry, it'll melt!). So while I did spend a good portion of my summer being true to my plans to focus on myself, now that the seasons are starting to change, I can feel the anxiety building. Less than two months from now, I will have the colposcopy and better understand how much more of a delay we are looking at before we can do our FET. And while I am still generally ok on the whole, I can't deny feeling that hope again each month, and feeling that painful emptiness in my heart on occasion. Taking it day by day is all I can do right now, being patient, biding time.