Struggles with Infertility

Being a parent is not something that everyone has as a goal in life. But once you decide that you want to be a parent, and you are unable to, your life can either unravel, or you can try to find meaning in your struggles. This blog is me trying to find meaning.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Failed IVF WTF Appointment and November FET

Being busy has it's benefits, one of which is that I have little time to wallow in my sorrow. I'm less than a week past the end of my last course for my first year of my MA, so have more free time (less homework, yay!) for a few weeks. However, my schedule for July through September is crazy, with trips to the Yukon and Houston for work, Stampede here in Calgary, and one of my favourite activities - camping! Before I know it, it'll be the end of September and I'll be preparing to head to Victoria, B.C. for my three week University residency.

That puts us in November for our FET. We finally had our WTF appointment for our failed IVF in March/April. Dr. Foong went over the embryologist report with me and we discussed why I had so many poor quality eggs. Looking at the report, the majority of my eggs were rated at a 3 (1 is good, 2 is moderate, 3 is poor quality), a few were 2's, and only two were 2+. No 1's. I asked about the protocol and it's contribution to the poor egg quality and she explained that while the protocol would have recruited more poor eggs, they were poor in the first place. The protocol can't cause poor eggs. I'm not 100% convinced and need to do a bit of research on this before we look at another IVF.

We found out that our two frozen blastocysts are rated 4BC and 5BB. The first number relates to the quality of the overall structure of the embryo and is a 1 - 5 scale, with 1 being the poorest quality and 5 the best. The first letter relates to the quality of the 'embryoblast', the part that turns in to the baby, with C being poor and A being good. The final letter relates to the quality of the 'trophoblast', which is the bit that turns in to the placenta, and again, C is poor, A is good. Overall, these two would be called 'medium quality' blasts. Dr. F is recommending we thaw both, hope they survive the thaw, and transfer whatever we get.

Derek and I have decided that while we are both ready to pursue another IVF, we're going to hold out hope for this FET and focus on that for now. I'll still do some research on our options (we still haven't done our testing for Dr. Sher yet), but at this point it's a bit overwhelming, so it's best to take a small step back for now.

In other news, we've submitted our preliminary paperwork to the Province of Alberta to start our home study for possible future adoption of a foster child. We have one child in mind right now (that's another story in itself!), but if that falls through, it'll be good to have already completed this process once we're ready to move on, if it comes to that.