This is because we used this song as part of a video we made a number of years ago when we entered a contest to win an IVF in the US. We didn't win, but the emotional process of making the video and the loving and overwhelming response we had from family and friends will stick with me forever. I have this song on my playlist, and every time it plays (like right now as I'm writing this post) I retreat in to a reflective mood, thinking about where we've been and where we're going.
So where are we going? Well, we've decided to give it one more shot. A couple of months ago I started reflecting (yeah, I do this a lot) on how I really felt about pursuing a gestational surrogate. Derek and I have this philosophy that we try to live with as few regrets as possible, so when making decisions, especially big life decisions, we think about the potential for regret. And I came to the conclusion that I would regret not giving it one more try on our own, especially considering the protocol I'd be following.
I had a call with Dr. Hudson yesterday and we're getting everything in place for a fall cycle. We're targeting an October retrieval, with PGD (genetic testing) on the embryos, then transfer in December or January.
So here we go, one last try, no regrets.
