Struggles with Infertility

Being a parent is not something that everyone has as a goal in life. But once you decide that you want to be a parent, and you are unable to, your life can either unravel, or you can try to find meaning in your struggles. This blog is me trying to find meaning.

Monday, May 18, 2015

Suprefact Side Effects, Ugh.

I am on day four of taking Suprefact nasally. Five times a day, every four hours starting early, early in the morning, I spray a dose of Suprefact up each nostril. The first couple of days I was still on vacation in the Okanagan area of B.C. riding my road bike with a group of team mates and I felt great. I had zero side effects the first few days despite having to spray gross stuff up my nose at the top of a hill climb on a stomach full of gels and bananas.

And then yesterday morning I woke up a few hours after taking my morning dose (and going back to sleep for a few hours) with some pretty severe stomach cramps. The memories of stomach pain associated with the Suprefact during my IVF came flooding back. I think what happens is the small amount of medication that does not get absorbed by my sinuses runs down the back of my throat and in to my stomach. It's probably especially bad when the stomach is empty, like it is first thing in the morning. Of course, to compound the fun, I started getting hot flashes as well (and I run pretty hot already).

We made the eight hour drive home yesterday with me cringing in the passenger seat every 20 minutes or so from a stabby cramp. I put off taking my next doses until the very last minute in fear the cramps would worsen, and made sure my stomach was full of absorbent foods each time. The cramps eased up by about midnight, and despite taking it again this morning on an empty stomach, I am not cramping today. I do still feel like a furnace though, so I'm thankful for the cooler weather here at home.

So here we go, first medication is started! I should start AF late next week or weekend and we add estrogen to the mix. I can't believe in less than a month I will be PUPO!


Saturday, May 2, 2015

Here we go!

Eight days ago I called in to the clinic with cycle day one and on Monday we got the offer for FET. This time we were able to say yes. Here's the schedule:

May 15th - start Suprefact, which is a suppressant that prevents me from ovulating during the FET cycle. I also start taking daily low dose aspirin for possible clotting issues (more preventative than anything).
Around May 29th - start taking Estrace (estrodol). This starts to build up my uterine lining.
Around June 11th - ultrasound to check lining, blood work to check estrogen levels. If all looks good, I will start taking Prometrium (progesterone) for further uterine lining development and potential pregnancy support.
Sometime between June 16th and 19th, the transfer will happen.

I pulled out our big fertility file because although I know we have two totcicles, I couldn't recall what age and grade they were. We have two day six hatching blasts, average grade. Our hope is that these two embryos were the best of the lot (I had 17 eggs retrieved, 14 fertilize during the IVF in 2012 - only four made it past day three, two of which are these frozen ones) and are strong, as evidenced by having made it to day six and starting to hatch. There is a risk that one or both don't make it through thaw, but the success rate for thaw is around 90%, so we won't let that worry us too much.

Now here's the thing - Derek and I have agreed that there will be radio silence for a few weeks following the transfer. He is aware of this blog and how public I am with our fertility journey, and he's open about it as well, but we both want to (hopefully) enjoy the first few weeks of a successful pregnancy, or mourn a failure privately, before we let you all in on the results. Trust me, this will be as hard on me as it is on you, but I think it will be good for us to have something between just us, even if for a short time.