Struggles with Infertility

Being a parent is not something that everyone has as a goal in life. But once you decide that you want to be a parent, and you are unable to, your life can either unravel, or you can try to find meaning in your struggles. This blog is me trying to find meaning.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Change of Plans

Should have updated this at least a week and a half ago, but I've been busy with work, life and University!

Lara went for her ultrasound on January 3 to check her response to the increased dose of estrogen and viagra. Unfortunately, her lining was only 5.5 - 6 mm, which is not enough. She spoke to our nurse, who conveyed that the doctor wanted Lara to take a couple of months off, then try mock cycles again, putting us well in to the summer for IVF.

The infertility journey seems to have very explicit ups and downs. You have the rise and fall of emotions during treatments - Clomid cycles, IUI, trying naturally, using something new. I had the rollercoaster of pregnancy loss three times, where I had days of joy and excitement followed by days of sadness and pain. Even then, getting a good beta after a bad one can renew hope, which is just crushed when you get the next call. Some months I'm perfectly patient, knowing our time will come, and some months I am practically biting my nails with impatience. The last six months I have been patient. I am now impatient. I can't wait any more.

So, this is what we're doing: I am going to do a cycle for only Lara and Roland right away. All eggs will go to them, they will fertilize, and freeze it for when Lara is ready. I will take the requisite month off, then we'll procede with our own IVF. I have an appointment with the doctor on January 23rd to discuss this and hopefully get moving. I will be mid-cycle at the appointment, so I hope, hope, hope we can get started right away and do the first egg retreival in February. If so, after a month off, that puts us in to April. We are planning a trip to Hawaii with my parents and Lara for the first half of the month, so hopefully it doesn't interfere, but if so, we'll bump ourselves to the next month.

So, fingers crossed for moving quickly! I'll update after the appointment on the 23rd!

(P.S. Lara may do a fresh transfer even if her lining is less then ideal. The nurse did say that they have had successful IVF's where the lining is not as thick as they want it...)

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